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You are viewing the most recent 2 entries May 15th, 2008: Uck I'm feeling shitty today, but the toilet flushes! Tags: fibromyalgia, fms, health, laundry, vulnerable February 26th, 2008: An Egg The following was posted in my journal on OK Cupid - Dated May 17, 2006 - 2:20am I was hungry fer scrambled eggs today & I made a comment that I felt like eggs.. & then I thought I'd be a smartass & said.. "I don't look like an egg, but I feel like one".. Well.. then Mom gets philosophical on me.. & said.. "well you prolly do feel like an egg".. a fragile shell that can be broken very easily & inside, nothing substantial.. the essence of me (yoke) just floating on a sea of nothingness (white).. being jostled & pushed around with no control & just sorta 'sloshing' around inside.. a lack of substance, nothing to grasp onto & ground myself. Sorta there, but not really able to do anything. & honestly, she was right.. I'd gotten into it with my Dad earlier.. & I was actually quite upset & felt very down.. feeling very vulnerable.. didn't help that I wasn't feeling well to start with. Plus it didn't help that Dad went completely off topic on what we were getting into in the first place.. First we were talking about my bills, then somehow were talking about the cottage. I didn't get it.. Ya know, I still feel very much like an egg as my mom described. Current Mood:  Melancholy. |