Neon Rose..

07:05 pm: The new language

The language of the drug culture

Green	-	Marijuana
Jube	-	Methamphetamine
Powder	-	Cocaine
Love Drug	-	Ecstacy
Juicy	-	Marijuana with Cocaine

Talk to your kids before they learn this language... http://www.drugprevention.gc.ca

Tags: child health, drugs, family

02:42 pm: Women's Health

THE MOST HEALTHY THINGS YOU CAN DO
The 101 Best Things to Do For Your Body -- Now!
Live till you're 120. Be happy 24/7. Never have another cold. OK, so we exaggerate. But follow our tips, and you'll come pretty damn close
Jennifer Bright Reich, additional reporting by Loren Chidoni

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/health/the-most-healthy-things-you-can-do?cm_mmc=Newsletter-_-2008_Apr_30-_-Health-_-The.101.Best.Things.to.Do.for.Your.Body.Top



Definitely worth the read.

Tags: article, breast cancer, family, food, friends, hair, health, sleep, women's health, yoga

07:22 am: OMG

1. Gasoline Can you believe the price of gas?? Yesterday I saw it between 107.5 cents and 109.9 cents... Now I'm in the Greater Toronto Area... How much does Gas cost where you area & what state/province are you in?

2. McD's refill's Yesterday I saw a guy pick up a used, but in good condition Medium sized McD's pop cup.. He emptied if of its contents & proceeded to the McD's location 100M away.. my only guess is that he was going in to get a refill on a pop that he never bought.. to me that's wrong... I also disagree with people going back for refills after refills after refills.. I can understand one - I do that frequently.. but 2 refills or 3 or 4.. I've seen it happen.. that's just wrong.

Ya know what - there was other stuff I wanted to mention, but fer the life of me, I'm not remembering it.. Oh!

3. Laura I was driving mom's car into the city yesterday with her in the car.. Mom tells me to slow down cuz of the speed limit change.. I stated that I wasn't too worried cuz there was no cop there.. & my next comment word for word.. "That is where Laura parks to nab cars".. Laura passed away um.. 5 years ago.. maybe 6.. I should have said "was".. *sigh* I still forget to correct the tense.. it's odd, cuz ya'd think I'd have it down by now.
Edit: Laura died Feb 19, 2002

That is all I remember now.. & back to bed I go :)

Tags: death, family, fatigue, fibro fog, kelli, laura, real, vent

07:31 pm: An Egg

The following was posted in my journal on OK Cupid - Dated May 17, 2006 - 2:20am


I was hungry fer scrambled eggs today & I made a comment that I felt like eggs.. & then I thought I'd be a smartass & said.. "I don't look like an egg, but I feel like one"..

Well.. then Mom gets philosophical on me.. & said.. "well you prolly do feel like an egg".. a fragile shell that can be broken very easily & inside, nothing substantial.. the essence of me (yoke) just floating on a sea of nothingness (white).. being jostled & pushed around with no control & just sorta 'sloshing' around inside.. a lack of substance, nothing to grasp onto & ground myself. Sorta there, but not really able to do anything.

& honestly, she was right.. I'd gotten into it with my Dad earlier.. & I was actually quite upset & felt very down.. feeling very vulnerable.. didn't help that I wasn't feeling well to start with. Plus it didn't help that Dad went completely off topic on what we were getting into in the first place.. First we were talking about my bills, then somehow were talking about the cottage. I didn't get it..

Ya know, I still feel very much like an egg as my mom described.

Tags: cottage, dad, emotions, family, real, sadness, vulnerable

12:06 pm: In Memeory

Laura was born 37 years ago today, Nov 2, 1970.. She died in the line of duty responding to an emergency call, February 28, 2001. She left behind her husband and 1 year old daughter. We all miss her.


Rest in Peace, Laura.


Tags: family, laura, real

02:01 pm: thanksgiving

Gonna do the gobble gobble thing tonight at Rob's parent's place.. they're picking up at at 3.30.. & me, I'm high on my drugs.. but just enough to lower my pain to a semi-functional level - yay..

And Off fer a 1 hr nap

Tags: family, health, holiday, kelli, real, rob, sleep, thanksgiving

09:07 pm: She Returns!

Hi all..

Just a quick note to let you know I got back home from our vacation in Quebec safe & sound last night..

I had my appointment this morning at the Environmental Health Clinic at Women's College Hospital with one of the top FMS docs (yet not a rheumatologist) in Canada.. spoke with her for about 3 hours & I have a follow up to book in a few months.. Gots lots of info & stuff to think about & changes to make..

I will post more info on vacation and the Drs appointment later this week.. :)

I will try & catch up on LJ posts as well..

Tags: cottage, doctors, family, fms, health, holiday, kelli, lj, montreal, real, sleep, treatment, vacation

10:33 pm: Update!

It's been a while since I've updated properly.. Other than the dead bird, it's been since late May..

I had my Cousin's Wedding on the 2nd of June.. it was nice.. she's a guide leader so she had an honour guard.. that was kinda cool, but I'd have had the kids in formal uniforms not those damn casual shirts & sweat pants.. So not appropriate for a wedding.. I think Dave might be interested in that idea.. having a colour party from his scouting youth.. at his wedding - God know when that will happen.. Heh - I've been asked to be one of the groomsmen *grin*

I got a message from Women's College Hospital here in Toronto from their Environmental Health Clinic. It's a unique multidisciplinary clinic promoting environmental health, and to improve health care for people with environment-linked conditions such as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia and Multiple Chemical Sensitivities. Yay! So my appointment is in July.. So much fer a 6 months waiting time - gotta love name dropping * smirk*

Last weekend Rob's parents decided to go to Detroit forth weekend.. We were going ot have Stephen down for the weekend as a result.. BUT, Brian, the other son of theirs who live in his parent's basement was going to be in Vancouver on a business trip (I thought it odd over the w/e, but hey.. *shrug*) The issue there being that Rob's parents have two small dogs who don't travel well.. so they needed someone to watch the dogs.. Well, one of the dogs likes to pee - everywhere, especially in new locations.. So Rob & I ended up going up there for the weekend.. the dogs missed their 'mom' & 'dad' and were very active in the evening & overnight.. as a result, Rob ended up sleeping on the couch downstairs.. While I got the small double bed upstairs (I think it may even be a 3/4) all to myself.. Stephen & I played cards both evenings, while during the Day, Rob & I were out & about.. & God! was I exhausted by the end of the weekend.. and we got ALL our laundry done, which we brought up there is the new luggage Rob bought up on Friday.. Which will be nice for our trip to Montreal. So we've got furniture & stuff for our balcony which is nice :)

I went to Stephen's lacrosse Game last Monday Got to see him play goal.. They won, so he was happy.. I went to the Wednesday game too, but the other team only had 4 guys show up - need 6 to play.. so the game was forfeit.. they grabbed players from kids who just played or were coming up.. to play.. unfortunately they then lost the 'fun' game.. the comments was that since it didn't count was that the guys on Stephen's team didn't bother to try.. But there's 2 more game... this Monday at 9.30.. & the finals on Wednesday..

Rob & I recently upgraded our cable to have a PVR box.. a personal video recorder.. It's a cable box with a HD that can record up to 50 hours of time & it's saved in digital, so it's just as good quality as when it was originally broadcast in digital, unlike a tape recording. I've already recorded The Lab with Leo for Rob & Numb3rs for me.. He's watched his shows I haven't watched mine.. this will be useful esp this Wednesday to record CNTM on City at 8 while I am up in Markham :)

Rob spent the weekend just past setting me up on his laptop which is a faster machine.. He's going to snagg my drive from my desktop & pop it into an upright drive case & attach it to the laptop.. He's also going to get an external dvd burner.. cuz the CD player on here, which it's supposed to burn CD's, only reads 'em.. so he's gonna get a new drive.. but hey, I got a better machine..

He is such a sweetheart!

Oh & I put up a cork board for him :)

Tags: family, fatigue, friends, health, kelli, laundry, montreal, pc, real, relationships, rob, stephen

07:13 pm: lots done

I got quite a bit done today...

* Cleaned the fridge - yes with hot soapy water & a rag.. couldn't do a great deal with the freezer cuz it starts to freeze the water in the rag, so that'll have ti wit ti winter to defrost & clean..
* Cleaned out the fridge - so tossed out the stuff that is old/stale/unusable.
* Reorganized the fridge - I changed a couple of shelves so they are different heights & moved stuff around so the space is more functional and can be put to better use, especially considering the amount of fluids there will likely be this summer.
* Dusted - needed to get done
* Vacuumed - with the upright vacuum I got back from my mom's.. gonna have to look at it tho, cuz it runs loud..
* Dinner is prepped & ready to go.. gonna actually start it in a few minutes..

Tomorrow, I think I am going to sweep & mop the floors before I do anything else.. Rob's gonna want me to chill out to I don't flare for Twylla's (my cousin's) wedding, but they haven't been done in over a week, so they need to be done.. but then I spend the rest of the day chillin' out & personal grooming.. I am thinking of a spray-on tan (and, yes I have a product that does not turn my skin orange :> ) - Thoughts? Opinions?

Oh - The other thing - I'm not getting my replies to posts & comments at the moment, so if I commented to your post & you replied, but I did not reply back, it *could* be that I haven't gotten the notification. :(

Tags: family, kelli, lj, real, to do

04:45 pm: FMS cause?

One theory about the cause of FMS is trauma.. & for the life of me, I couldn't think of any trauma that I had near the onset of my symptoms.. then it just poped into my head last night.. when *was* it that I had that riding accident?? Some years ago I got thrown/fell from a horse as itr spontaneously decided to break into a run.. I was in the saddle for a few seconds before I was out of it & in midflight.. thankfully my foot didn't get caught in the stirrup ( I think part of that cause of the accident was the stirrup not adjusted properly) or I coulda been dragged.. I ended up landing on my left side my head on the ground opposite the direction I had been headed.. Immediate injuries? I'd cracked my ribs & ached all over.. & need 2 people to help me get up.. Was driven tothe Er by my brother-in-law.. My back was xrayed & no visialbe damage..

Now this happened in the late summer/early fall either the year before before my symptoms started, or the year they started (Symptoms started in late fall).. I just gotta find out when the hell I did the flying act.. It was a family day at the Wingenback Ranch, so my sister might know - she was 5-6 horses behind me on teh trail ride..

My brother in law was actually right behind me on the trail ride & just to show you how insensitive he was,he laughed at me & said I'd looked like a cartoon character falling of a horse, slowly moving around the horse.. Moron. & no, he was not trying to cheer me up.

So I gots some questions to ask.

Tags: entertainment, er, family, fibromyalgia, fms, health, humour, real

05:02 pm: Shower

Yesterday was my cousin Tywlla's bridal shower.. now I had told her mom I was coming & had intended to but cuz I wasn't doing too hot in the morning, I called & canceled.. Oddly enough, it was just a cruddy morning, so I skipped the shower for no reason.. *sigh*..

What ticked me off tho, was I'd called my mom, told her I wasn't going, but had told her I had a card & gift for Twylla.. & asked that on her way by, instead of picking me up, to just pick up the shower gift.. I had also called my sister, who was actually driving & left a message with her hubby.. Her hubby wasn't able to give her the message, & my mom plumb fergot that she still needed to stop by here to get the gift.. so AFTER she overshoots, at 1pm (which is when she was supposed to be at the shower & she said she'd be by at 12.30 at the latest), she calls from her cell phone, says she fergot to tell Wendy we still had to come by my place & that they have already overshot & they're running way late so they wont be by.. My guess is they were late cuz of the kids in the back seat who don't normally go to bridal showers.. *sigh*

Shows how much consideration I get.. & how forgetful my mom is.. Ya'd think when she told Wendy that she didn't have to pick me up that she'd ALSO say that she had top pick up the gift. grr.. How stupid!

Tags: family, health, real

05:16 pm: To do..
Stuff I gotta do this week

Dusting

Vacuum

Put up banner plaque for the original six in the spare bedroom

Sweep & wash floors

Netfile Taxes

Work on Rob's website

Shopping fer Twylla's shower gift

Attend Twylla's shower on Saturday

Dr apt tomorrow afternoon

Go to Costoc for later this week.. - I should make up a shopping list fer Costco in case Rob goes without me.

Eat - surprisingly I do forget to do this on occasion

Tags: family, rob, to do

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06:29 pm: Today's an okay day healthwise.. I'm a bit sore from bringing the pop (see next post) home from the store, even tho Scott did most of the heavy lifting..

I do have this odd pain in my chest.. I noticed it yesterday & started taking my puffer, not sure if it was my asthma or something else.. I think it's in the "something else" Category.. puffers aren't seeming to help it.. & since there's no swelling to indicate an inflammation or pulled muscle, when I see my GP on Thursday (see next post) I'll mention it to her..

Not too much going on tonight tho..

This weekend is my cousin Twylla's Bridal shower ( wedding's in June)

Next weekend is Karen's birthday - a friend of mine from work.. & on Sunday I'm gonna be seeing the musical We will Rock You with my mom..

Tags: birthday, family, friends, health, real, work

04:33 pm: Easter w/e

Stephen came for the w/e on Thursday evening & we just hung out & stuff.. On Friday, while Rob went to work, Stephen & I went to the movies.. We saw Premonition, the Sandra Bullock movie.. I liked it, Stephen said I was better than he expected it to be.. & then he comments that the guy who pays the husband is always getting killed off.. cuz in the trailer for Premonition you know the guys dies, but in the action movies that Stephen has seen him in, he dies & he was killed off of Charmed, the tv series he was ion... I wonder if he's gonna get killed off of Nip & Tuck..

Saturday Stephen got to go to the Hockey game - Leafs/Canadiens & Rob & I stayed home cuddled on the couch watching the game.. I am glad we won, but not glad that the Islanders won on Sunday.. Leafs are out of the playoffs.. :(

But.. Yesterday was a good day.. Rob, Stephen & I went out to Oshawa for my family Easter Dinner (Rob's parents were in Detroit).. Mom had bought perogies & cabbage rolls for dinner.. but had ham & potatoes (scalloped tho - uck) & other more traditional Eastery type foods.. (we're British by decent, not Ukrainian).. the girls enjoyed the egg hunt.. Kaden didn't quite get into it.. but he's not even 2, so I can cut him some slack.. Stephen did the hunt for Cassie down in the basement of my parents cuz last year she said it was too easy.. she said it was much better this year..

Paigey came in with a new t-shirt on the from said " I am going to be" & then on the back it said "the best big sister ever" That's was Tim & Crystal way of telling us that she was pregnant - YAY! She's due in October.. the 19th I believe I was told..

So with the good news, everyone was in a great mood :)


However, I am paying for it today.. I'm hurting pretty much all over.. hyped up on T3's.. & tired to all get out

I'm going to wait til Stephen in picked up in the next half hour or so by his grandparents, then go back & lay down.. & Yay - I can take another T3 now, which is good cuz the pain is creeping back up the scale, which is not good :(

btw, any suggestions for left over Easter jelly beans? Besides eating them, or giving them to Stephen??

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On another note, yesterday was Catherine's birthday.. I sent her an ecard.

Tags: birthday, chronic pain, drugs, ecards, family, fatigue, fibromyalgia, fms, friends, health, holiday, hunger, montreal, real, rob, stephen, vent

07:17 am: Today's To do list

Now, I realize I'm not gonna get everything done & right now, my back is feeling better, but I used one of those wipes last night, so it could still be from that.. & I'll try & cross out as I get stuff done.. so here we go.. (in general order of importance & subject to change)

Empty Shredder (not important, but gonna be done before I sweep)

Sweep floors

Mop Floors

Call Mom & discuss Easter

Talk to Super about front door He came by with the handy man & the door is fixed!

Go to LCBO fer Boxes

Stop at Shoppers to price wipes Gonna have to call, not there..

Stop at PharmaPlus fer Easter plushies

Reorganize boxes on dresser & put out cars

Put away hang-to-dry laundry

Do taxes

Call Zellers Pharmacy & Walmart Pharmacy fer prices on wipes

Lace Rob's sneakers

Anything else???
But in the meantime, back to bed to finish sleeping (was up to help Rob get to work)

Edit @ 2.42: Now that I got teh first 5 done, I am gonna chill out fer a bit - half hour or so & then head outside. weather eye says it's 9 degrees out (celcius)

Current Mood: tired

Tags: chronic pain, family, fatigue, fibromyalgia, fms, health, sleep, weather

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11:15 pm: Oopsie

I stopped by at my sister's place tonight to get some web stuff from her computer.. & she asks me to take her kids to the park.. not a big deal.. I can handle these 3.. .. so we go play around the creek.. well, more the 2 girls than the toddler & I.. then off to the park..

Silly me shows, well, tries to show off.. the girls were tryign to do gynastics-type flipps & stuff on a bar.. So I show them a dismount that I remember from my gynastics class in highschool.. & come crashign down on my feet.. still on my feet, but a none to graceful landing.. but I was still feeling ok.. other than teh not across my stomach where the bar dug into me.

so I get back to my sister's with the kids.. & I toddle off to the potty.. & I sit on the toilet & OH MY GOD did my knee just jump out at me.. I'm retty sure I'm not gonna be doing gymnastics again anytime soon. It's not swollen really much or anything, so I think I instigated a flare.. a mild one.. I can still walk.. but still.. *sigh*

Tags: family, fibromyalgia

07:22 am: Oops???

Ok.. now, you'd think the STRONG smell of bleach coming from the laundry room & especially the laundry tub would forwarn my father that there might be bleach someplace close by.. especially considering there is a light coloured, stained towel in the laundry tub that is obviously wet AND I'm in the middle of doing laundry...

SO what does he do? He tosses his dark blue sweatshirt on top of it. So much for his sweatshirt - it's not got some nice light stripes on it.. New painting shirt!

He's been notified (by email), and I wonder what his reaction is gonna be..

Tags: family, laundry

09:51 am: Laura.. & family..

Why is it that four years later, I still get upset when I think about Laura dying.. Especially lately.. ever time I have thogouth of her, my eyes have welled up in tears, teh nose starts to run.. & my heart aches.. Tim's moved on, why can't I? Maybe there's a subconcious rejection that I'm doing to Crystal cuz of my remaining grief from Laura.. Could that be why she (Crys) feels unwanted by the family? I thought I'd be the one she'd relate to & become friends with most.. but that hasn't happened.. I dunno.. Makes one think..


*sigh* I miss Laura.


For those of who you've no clue who Laura is..

Tags: death, family, laura

08:43 pm: nin :(

*sigh*

I am missing my concert.. I am home, sick.. either the stomach flu or food poisoning.. here my mother thinks I am faking.. I would NOT miss a NIN concert just to fake her out. I've been debating all day wether or not to go, despite everything.. cuz I start to feel better, then the pain rips through my abdomen again .. :( not a pretty sight..

So.. I am missing my concert.. & I feel bad, cuz Rob paid good money fer these tickets.. & I was soo looking forward to going away for the night too *sigh*

Tags: family, health, ibs, music, nin, sadness

06:22 am: *Real* entry

So, here I am, almost 6.30 in the morning.. & I went to bed at 2.. took meds, did yoga, released some endorphins, & I am still awake.. well.. not quite.. I did doze a bit.. not really asleep, but not completely awake.. all in all, not very helpful. No, Rob, I'm not gonna call you.. :P

Cath & I went to Sams Club & Costco last night.. wasted trip pretty much for me.. at Sams Club I got Oatmeal to go bars.. & some shampo & conditioner.. but I was so excited to see Fruit Fusion that I didn't look to see that it wasn't fer my hair type, so it's going back.. & they had no souvlaki :( Cath, on the other hand spent a small fortune.. So then, off to Costco.. again, no Souvlaki.. AND they've discontinued my toilet paper :( which was my primary reason for going there.. so while Cath's stuff isi goin thru at Costco, the girl mentioned after ringing stuff in that the membership is past due.. *eyeroll* thanks mom, so I renew it.. $100 plus tax, uck.. so other than the membership I bought nothing there.. & Cath dropped almost $80 in food stuffs. Needless to say, I am not happy with Costco.. & overall with the shopping trip yesterday..

Then when we get back, Meagan tells me she doens't want her bday present.. I don't knwo why I bother.

One of my best friends kids is "becoming a woman" if ya know what I mean.. and I found out that she doesn't know what's gonna happen to her body.. I gave her a quick health lesson on the female reproductive system, but I'm gonna grab a book & stop by this afternoon to explain it a bit better & with proper visuals, not my cheesey diagram. My best friend had no problems with my discussing this with the young lady, but got a little huffy when I mentioned that i knew more.. Well, because of my endometriosis, I do.. I prolly know alot more about how the body functions cuz of all my health issues.. I'm not saying I'm the be all & end all.. & I'm not saying there are things about health that she knows that I don't - I know there is.. For example, I know piddly-squat about arthritis, but she does..

So, from there, I'll be heading to the Y to walk with Kaden.. I emailed my sister so that she'll bring a larger stroller, not that flimsey umbrella one that I have to stoop to push around the track & to call me if she doesn't have it. That way I can bring the one from the house.. & not kill my back..

Friday I will be helping mom with the kids.. She'll have Paige as of Thursday evening, but on Friday morning she'll aquire Kyah & Kaden as well.. the girls should be able to play well together..

Tomorrow night Cath's talking about going out instead of just staying in.. that, of course, depends on how tired she is.. & how I'm feeling.. I also want to get my hair done this weekend.. I'm getting roots & the grey is coming through.. :(

Monday Is NIN in London!!! Yay!!! I am looking forward to it.. our hotel fucked up & cancelled our reservation.. Good thing Rob called to confirm.. so instead of thsi nice hotel, with some amenitys, we've got a Days Inn - at least its a bed.. & then when we get back int othe city.. greek food & a hockey game.. Leafs vs Habs.. so I'll be in my Leafs Jersey & Rob in his Habs shirt *eyeroll*

Goddamit. I hate my Body - my IBS is acting up.. 6 movements in less than 24 hours.
& the drugs are fucking everythign else up.. *sigh*

Tags: best friend, family, friends, health, ibs, insomnia, music, nin, real, yoga