Neon Rose..

Because of incident back a few months back, for our trip this time around, the hotel manager upgraded us for our entire vacation to a fireplace/jacuzzi suite.  That in its self is sweet, but the room also have, in addition to the normal amenities plus the fireplace (it's a faux fireplace) plus the jacuzzi, it also has sitting area.  Most hotel rooms, at least here, have a desk and a chair, however ours has a sitting area with two chairs and a love seat with a coffee table as well as the desk. Kinda cool. But, the one additional thing that resulted in my revelation is the mirror over the bed.

I had a rest when I got back to the hotel after dinner before heading down to the pool. I tend to lay down most comfortably in the buff.  So, there I am, laying on the bed and caught the image of my nekkid figure in the mirror's reflection.  At our apartment we don't have a full length mirror. Even looking face front doesn't really give you the real picture & I don't really think to check out the profile of my body when I do get a full length mirror. But I caught a glimpse of myself as I was laying down, in my side, in profile to the mirror.  & I saw exactly how horribly big I am.  I was repulsed.  I think I now know why Rob's not really all that interested in me anymore. It's, well, disgusting.. 

Something needs to be done. *I* need to do something. .

*sigh*

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